Expectations

I don't think ill get my hopes up
Anymore
For everything just
Goes out of it's way to screw up.

I'm tired of expecting otherwise
Giving second chances away
I've learned my lesson
In believing what you say.

I guess you've exhausted
All my excitement
Now a blank face awaits
Any prearranged so called special occasions

Because I know
It results in false hope
In the end.

Not.

"I care for you"
Why yes, yes,
Why of course you do.

Not.

Lies.

Maybe one day
I'll be able
To learn to detangle
The truth from your lies.

For every word you say
Is fraught with goodbyes.
That are better left
Unheard.

One-sided worries
Caught in a flurry
Of words in a hurry
To go anywhere but here.

Lies.
I see it in your eyes.

Unlikely Beauty or Artful Insanity. Your choice.

There's something beautiful about it.
The way of chaos
Of destruction

There's something beautiful about it.
The way black frames
Everything you touch

There's something beautiful about it.
The way pain tears you apart
And wakes you up
Clearing your mind
Stealing away your emotions.

There's something beautiful...
In falling apart.
Sometimes.

There's something beautiful...
In losing control.

There's something beautiful...
In everything you do
The way you can undo
Unravel
My sanity.
So easily.

It's beautiful
And scary
How you can change
Someone so much.

Who are you?
Who am I?

There's something beautiful...
In losing yourself.
Sometimes...I think
Destruction fills me with a sense of peace.

We are all dead here.

There's something cathartic
In feeling pain.

We are all mad here.

But that's okay.

Because it's beautiful too.

"Oh you're in my veins and I cannot get you out."
-In My Veins by Andrew Belle

Kudos

Slice me to ribbons
And let me bleed
Then stitch me together

And smile.

The way you do
Makes me confused.
It's a never-ending cycle.
///I'm trapped.///
You don't need knives.
To cut me apart.
You're doing so well
All by yourself.
Well...I don't know...
Kudos...
To you I guess.
?
?
!

"Nothing goes as planned, everything will break. People say goodbye, in their own special way."
-In My Veins by Andrew Belle

Oscillations

All those oscillations
Between my emotions
Make me go crazy
Because it makes things hazy.

And I don't know what to do.

Highlighting

Highlighting the differences
Makes you miss
All the similarities
You claim don't exist