Sinking

Shes drowning, her arms flail helplessly as she tries to grasp on to that faint shred of hope. Shes sinking even faster. A burst of bubbles erupt around her as she screams for help. Her cries go unheard and she kicks out even harder in a desperate attempt to regain somesort of control over the situation. Her eyes sting and theres no way to tell where the tears end and where the water begins. The water holds on to her, steadily weighing her down. Her eyes once so vibrant and youthful, cloud over with the emotions she tries so hard to conceal. In one desperate last ditch effort she reaches her hands up to the surface of the water. She opens her mouth in one last cry of help, the plea going unheard in the deep unforgiving depths. Her eyes beg for someone to save her,

'Help, help, help...'

Lets imagine the same situation, just a little differently.

Shes drowning, her body weighed down with all that she knew and lost. Her arms hang limp at her sides as she slowly lets the weight of all that she tried to save,drag her down to the murky depths. A faint, deranged smile graces her lips as flickers of insanity dance in her shaded eyes. The drop is much faster than she imagined. Before long, its impossible to see where the water ends. The surface is long gone and shes engulfed in pure darkness. The only light comes from the steady glint in her eyes. Her eyes once so vibrant and youthful, cloud over with the emotions she no longer bothers to conceal. Shes gone inside and she knows it. A lost soul, beyond saving. Shes lost in the darkness, and this time it doesnt matter. She doesnt care anymore. Shes perfectly comfortable in the darkness, drowning in herself.

Sometimes i really feel like this. I feel like im drowning. And i don't even know where the dark ends and where the light begins. It feels like...choking on words i can't bear to say. Sinking much faster than expected. And there's nothing left to do.

I don't know where i'm headed.

I'm sick of feeling nothing.

It doesn't end does it.

How much further do i have to sink before i hit the bottom...